You married me six years ago!!!! Despite me being me.......
You married me even though I was a stinker on our first date. Who am I kidding I was a stinker for quite a few of our first dates. Here David took me out with family and friends, and everyone was asking me if I was his girlfriend. All I could do was laugh nervously. I must have seemed so immature.
This was our first picture ever. David thank you for wanting to marry me even though I looked like a skunk most of the time. I use to love highlighting my hair, but I should have been more timely about my touch ups. But he still wanted to date me :0)
Thank you for taking me to the temple!!! And thank you for still marrying me after I came into the temple looking like I had just seen a ghost. My morning was crazy. I slept like a baby which I didn't expect. I was so calm the night before, and so excited especially after my future hubby came to my parents house to wish me goodnight and gave me our last kiss as girlfriend and boyfriend. Well my morning would not be reflective of the peaceful nights rest I got. I showed up to the hair salon, and my hairstylist and the person who was suppose to do my makeup where no where. When they finally came in I had ten minutes before I had to leave to get to the temple on time. Oh how I wish that I had just left and did my hair and makeup myself. I got in the car, and panic began to ensue. I got so nervous. As you know David I am a creature of habit. And I started to wonder if you would be able to love me for eternity. I was worried that I wouldn't be able to protect and care for my siblings the way I use to. And I was nervous about being a wife. As sad as this is, all I knew how to cook were scrambled eggs, and grilled cheese. And I had never washed a load of laundry before. I was worried I would not be a good wife. I bet you were worried too for the first two years lol. With school and work I was not able to really develop my wife skills. I bet you were relieved when you found that I could cook, and in fact I have come to see it as a form of art. I love all the colors, and flavors, I guess I am a foodee :0). And I love to keep my house clean and organized, and I even have come to love to sew, and do crafts. I know this coming from the girl who told here young women's leader after sewing the sleeves to a shirt shut 20 times over, that I had no need to sew because I would just buy some. She quickly said, "we will see how you feel about sewing when you are first married with no money and wanting to decorate your house with curtains." She was right! :/
After six years you would think that my scary smile which always showcases vains in the neck and forehead, with a jokerish smile would have faded away..... but nope its still here. Thank you for loving my imperfections.
After two years of being married, you gave me a beautiful little girl!! Our kids are a product of our love. And I hope that they will always reflect to the world the love that is felt in our home. Thank you for being so wonderful during my first pregnancy. You were so patient. So patient with me being sick, being obsessed with the different places that weight gain could appear, my mood swings, and for loving when I cry even though I try and act like a tough girl right after. I blame my first pregnancy with why I am now a cry baby. Not that I am crying because I am sad, but simply because I feel so much. Like a commercial, or finding that a family of children from primary are moving out of the ward. I know pathetic right.....luckily I can hide it pretty well, I just tear up a little.
Then there was our second child. I was so nervous to have a boy. Here I was about two months into our second pregnancy. As always you were so carrying and protective of me. You assured me that I would be able to handle this little bundle of boy. And sure enough we have. He has brought so much life into our home. Thank you for giving me the confidence to raise our beautiful little boy. And letting me eat all that I wanted, even though you know as well as I did that me blaming my cravings on having a boy, was just an excuse for me to eat more ice cream and McDonalds french fries.
Even after six years, you still support me in all my goals and aspirations. Even sit and just listen to me dream. Like when I tell you how I would like to be a baker that makes beautiful wedding cakes, or dream of being a dance, or dream of becoming a photographer, a fitness instructor, a professor, an activist, a jewlery designer. Hmmmm the list goes on I think the whole "what do I want to be" hit me late in life. lol Here I am six months pregnant getting ready to bring Arianita into this world. I could not have finished school without you!!! I hope that you feel that I support you in your goals and aspirations. I think you and I together could do and achieve anything that we desire. I love that after six years, we can still dream together and actually think that there is someway that we can achieve our goals, as silly as they may seem at times.
Thank you for always making me feel beautiful. I could be 40 pounds over weight, 30, 20 , 25, 15, 10 or 0....... and it never seems to matter to you. I feel as though you are truly in love with me. And I feel the same about you. You get better and better looking to me everyday, no matter how in shape you think you may or may not be!!!
I know we are not old yet. But I look forward to it. I am not scared, as long as I have you by my side. As we gain lines by our smiles, and eyes, I know that my eyes will always just see you as the love of my life. I think we are going to be such great gradparents. Visiting all our grandkids, and me making flour tortillas, and gallords of Mexican food, making all my inlaws to take seconds. And you sitting with the grandkids, just making them laugh. You are so good at making our kids laugh. And not any laugh the laugh that comes from the belly. Our grandkids are going to love you!!
No matter what changes your hug and kisses never do. This is so comforting to me. I love your hugs and kisses and I can never get enough of them. I am sorry I am not more publicly affectionate. I do love it when you are. My heart feels so happy when you just give me the tightest squeeze. I have made the decision that I am not going to let anything stop me from just loving you!!!! I don't want to look back, and think I should have loved you more. I want you to never question how much I love you. I want you to know the love that I feel for you from the tips of your toes to the top your head.
I love how you look at me. I hope that when are time in this life is done, that I will have dozens of pictures with this exact same look. Proving to the world that our love was real and wonderful. I hope my kids find the same kind of love that we have been so lucky to find with each other.
I love you David!!! Happy 6th Anniversary!!! I am so lucky to have you in my life!!!
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