Friday, October 26, 2012

Just Because



 I've been working on creating some new photo actions.  I have been really obsessing over pictures that have a dull matte look. Especially in black in white pics.  I just find their simplicity so beautiful, and natural. Plus I love working on pictures that have my beautiful babies.  This week has been crazy.  Trips to the E.R, Car dealership, teething baby, writing a talk for church, all just made this week fly by in a chaotic kinda way. Weeks like these I sometimes forget to really SEE my kids. I love them.  I love that Ariana is such a great big sister.  She loves her brother's so much.  And then I love it when Viggo's eyes disappear when he smiles.  That means he is giving his for real smile.  How did I get so lucky?  Sometimes I just want to freeze time.  At least I can freeze moments in my life on camera.  For some reason the thought of that just eases my fear of them growing up too fast.  I never want them to leave my home.  I am going to be soooo sad when that day comes.  Okay, enough about that I need to focus on now.  I have them now.  Tantrums, giggles, messiness, joy n' all. Happy FRIDAY!!





Thursday, October 25, 2012

What Does Fall Look Like to you?



 I've been experiencing fall envy, with all the beautiful pictures people have been putting up of trees getting ready to slumber.  Sometimes I long for the signs of a change of season.  I think about how fun it would be to have leaves that change color, or actually being able to tell that one's rain longs to become snow.  I think about dressing my kids in knit scarves and hats.  I daydream about jumping into a pile of leaves and hearing them crunch beneath the weight of fall clothes.  But although I may not experience fall this way, I also anticipate the signs of fall in my own way.  I found this picture that I took last fall while living in San Diego.  And this is what fall is for me.  Empty beaches, people pulling their hoodies over their heads in the morning, cold sand, beautiful cloudy sunsets, people warming up their hands on a chilly morning in between their warm Starbucks drinks.  This is what Fall looks like to me!

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

My Nugget of Truth....a little late but I got it!





I look forward to Halloween for so many different reasons.  Cooler weather, open windows, non-manufactured air running through my home, baked goodies ( I need to make less ), homemade soups, letting my kids play outside before 5:00....because the weather is actually cooler HORRAY! We get to decorate the home with fun spooky spider webs, and lights, and jack 'o lanterns. I have lived in non-seasonal changing places pretty much all my life.  But these are the things that make me feel like fall has arrived.  I love how my home feels around this time of year.  The kids are just so excited for everything.   Watching their excitement is contagious.  But this Halloween I am extremely grateful for this particular costume.

One of my awesome neighbors, Lisa let me borrow it which means I get to save on spending on a costume.   But besides that I feel like I learned something new about Viggo, through this costume. Which has totally blown my mind away. I mean I guess I always knew it....but just didn't recognize it.  Okay, so here goes. Here is my mind blowing revelation that I learned about my sweet Viggo.  And I am writing this down so I do not forget this about him.  So my Viggo is like "all boy" for lack of a better term.  He loves to talk about poop, loves farting noises, he loves to wrestle, and he is highly athletically inclined, and he is stubborn and if I do not intervene on time and help him to understand what he is feeling, well we got an angered raged tantrum.  So with all these things when we would go shopping for Halloween costumes for Viggo we would look at the tuff looking stuff.  We would look at Captain America, Spiderman, Thor, Pirates, Hulk.  I mean with his kind of tantrums we thought he would love to be the Hulk.  Not to mention that he thinks the Hulk is awesome. Yet, with all these things, these where not things HE WANTED TO BE.  

This should have been my "duh" moment.  How many times do we find something cool, but it's not something we necessarily would like to do, or be?  So, my neighbor Lisa comes out with this costume, and says "Do you think Viggo would like to wear this?"  I was already convinced that he just did not want to wear a costume, and I was like " I can ask him." So I showed Viggo the costume, and asked him.  (Thinking there is no way he is going to want to be a chicken.) He takes one look and starts jumping up and down, and saying "Yes, yes that's what I want to be.  I want to be a chicken!" And, then he wanted to put it on right away.  So I put it on.  As as he is putting it on he has a huge grin on his face. All the neighborhood kids are around, and he looks like the happiest kid on the block.  He takes off running after all the kids, and when he would get to them he would give them a big squeeze.  All the kids were laughing and screaming his name.  There I was thinking who would have thought my Viggo would have wanted a "sweet" chicken costume.  And then my neighbor Holly says "look at him he such a ham."  A literal light bulb clicked on above my head in that moment.  Viggo is a ham! 

He does the shake the booty dance for anyone who asks him too.  Why, because it makes them laugh.  He tries to make us laugh at dinner all the time.  Those weird annoying noises that I thought he did for people, because I thought he was acting shy, was not out of shyness at all.  He was just trying to be funny.  The reason why he tugs on his eyes for a picture is not because he is trying to be difficult, or because he does not want to take a picture.  He has just been trying to make me laugh.  My boy likes to be funny! I have always admired people who can make me laugh, and that were the life of the party.  I myself am rather shy, and well not the life of the party.  So thinking that I could have a child who would be funny was just nothing that I was ever able to imagine or conceive that one my children would want to be.  No wonder when I would get annoyed at him, for making his weird noises, he would get upset.  He was upset that he was unable to make me laugh.  He was sad that I did not find him funny.  My Viggo loves to make people laugh!  

I know he is only three and that in his life he is going to go through so many personality changes.  And I just want to remember this moment.  I will try not to label and understand him through what he likes, but to truly sit back and watch who he is.  He is my sweet SILLY Viggo..... for now.  And that's okay because I look forward to finding out what else he will want to be in the future.  Just, because in high school I liked the song "baby one more time" Britney Spears it did not mean I wanted to run around with midriff bearing shirts, and pigtails, with knee high stockings. Or just because I think people who sky dive and rock climb, or climb ABOVE the monkey bars, or people that can do a flip on a trampoline are like supper cool, does not mean you will EVER find me in this lifetime wanting to do those things.  I love people's talent for drawing, but there is not a single bit of interest in me to want to learn this beautiful craft.  And yes, I do know how the things we are surrounded by and like can influence us, but sometimes the things we like and admire have nothing to do with who we want to be.  Sometimes we can just simply sit back and appreciate other things.  And it took this Chicken Costume to allow me to learn this truth.  

Hope you are all having fun getting ready for HALLOWEEN!



Monday, October 15, 2012

My Poor Sick Baby




I feel like Micah has been sick forever.  He got sick before Ariana's fall break, and then in the middle of her fall break he got sick again.  This cold comes in two parts, just when you think you're over it, a couple of days later you get a nasty cough, and oodles of mocos (boogers)!  My sweet Micah I hope you feel better soon.  It is not fair that your little body has to hurt.  I hope when I walk into your room tomorrow morning you just have your dimples on display, and we don't have to wipe away any crusty mocos from your delicate skin.  
Love you Micah. 

Monday, October 8, 2012

Just one of those days




 Viggo the moment you were born I knew you would be a force to reckon with.   You have a heart of gold, but when you decide you are done, there is no talking you down from that cliff.  You have such a strong opinion and you are VERY stubborn.  But as stubborn as you are you are as equally humble.  After your rage subsides you are quick to say I'm sorry.  In your moments of rage I can see in your eyes that you already feel bad for your choice, but you just haven't learned to master and recognize all the emotions that your little three year old self is feeling.  I hope together we can work on this, and that you know that I love you so much! You bring so much energy into our home.  Your smile and goofy antics never fail to make me laugh.  I know you love me, and I love you. 

Love,
Momma




It was one of those days :0/   But what would I compare my wonderful days to if I did not have these..... right?